I had a dream last night about Alex. It was kind of weird, and I just felt like writing about it I guess. It helps to get it out of my system. I can't really remember what it was about. I was hanging out with her in her room/apartment and it had been a while since we'd talk, but I guess we decided to hang out in person after this whole time. Anyhow, that's all I really remember. I remember thinking in the back of my head, I was hoping we could try and rekindle things.

   Like I said, it was a weird dream. I think it happens every once in a while; I'll dream about an old girlfriend or friend. In fact, now that I think about, I had dreamed about my dead grandparents the night before. I must be going through some weird dream phase. I've been dreaming a lot lately, and I wish I would stop. I feel like I haven't gotten a good nights sleep in a while.

   I guess right now, I'm just thinking of people I miss. I think of my grandparents all the time. I wish I could see them one more time or ask them for advice. I'm just glad I was there with them before the end. As far as Alex goes; can't really say I miss her. If I thought of her, it'd be a little nostalgic I guess, but I feel like that about almost everything because I always romanticize the past. When I moved here from Atlanta was one of the more depressing times in my life, but I think back fondly to sitting alone on my lunch break at work reading post apocalypse novels at the time.

   I can't complain. It's better than thinking about the bad parts of the past, although I definitely think about those things a lot sometimes, too, but I try not to dwell.